Sunday, July 16, 2006

Sweater and Travels

I am working on a really cute Mission falls sweater for Isaac, it's my first real sweater attempt, and so far it's going ok. We'll see when I get up to the neck how that turns out. And this week I'll be leaving for a trip to Europe (with a bunch of teenagers again!) And the flight should give me some good knitting time, so hopefully that'll work out too. It's a busy but fun summer again this year, and I will miss Isaac TREMENDOUSLY, but I know that the trip will help me to become a better person, and that in the end will benefit my family - so I go on a wish and a prayer. Hopefully the boys will miss me but not too much while I'm gone. So, the next time I post will be in August... amazing how fast the time goes...

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Yea Summer

So, things are better since my last post, and I hope to do this more often. Things with my family are still difficult, but we are working our way through some of the complicated mess created in every family that has someone with Dimentia in it. Onto some happier thoughts.

Summer has created some knitting time (as i sit in meetings and classes much more often now)- so I have started making Isaac a sweater. It's my first attempt at a sweater, so I am hoping that I can figure it all out. I also have had a chance to start reading good books again, and having nice home grilled dinners with my family- so yea for summer!

Thursday, May 11, 2006

A long & painful spring-come on summer

So, it has been a while since I posted - in part because this has been just a tough month again. The week of April 22 was so weird, I was away at a Christian educators event, which was fantastic, but I was out of touch (no phone, no internet, no cell reception, UGH!) It turns out that my dad fell. Somehow Alzheimer's and falling are related (though I cannot for the life of me figure out what the connection is)...and so he has been in the hospital and now rehab ever since. It is VERY frustrating to not know what is coming next. He has steadily declined and now needs help sitting up even- he just doesn't have any strength or balance. And my parents are financially a mess thanks to Dad having fallen prey to about a hundred different scam artists before we realized he had alzheimers (note to all men and women, both spouses should always have a hand in finances of the family-- because no one plans for things like this to happen). And so now we wonder what will come next for them. If he gets sent home, my mom will most likely have to quit her job to take care of him. Or if he goes to a nursing home, well, we don't know that financially that can happen without them selling their home, and then, what would happen to my mom? Anyhow - this is terribly depressing, and it's all just to say that I need to knit more not less when it's stressful like this- and I need to post my thoughts more because it helps to journal, online or otherwise.
This year has been rough so far, but I am really hopeful that the summer will be beautiful and joyful and that even these struggles will pass eventually.
that's where I am today anyway...

Monday, April 17, 2006

Felting can be fun!

So, I finally finished the knitting of my laptop bag (which I started way back in January, but set aside several times, as usual, that's how knitting goes for me)...Anyhow- I think that I have successfully felted it. It's hard to know when "enough" felting has occurred, but I am guessing that it is simply a matter of taste and size, and it seemed like it was at a good point- so, now i just need to buy a zipper and get some sewing advice in order to be finished. Yea! And one of the neatest things about this was that my husband even took an interest in the felting process (ya gotta admit, it is sciency and pretty cool- this process)...anyhow- it made for a lot of fun on Friday. We also spent out Easter weekend tandem biking together and then visiting our friends from seminary KP and Melissa and our fabulous goddaughter Sashi. It was a great weekend all in all. So, now, back to work!

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Livin' the Good Life

This weekend I am leading a Girls retreat at work- and I am so excited about it. We have fifteen girls, two Seminary Students, my colleague and I. We'll be talking about perfectionism and using Anna Quindlan's book "Being Perfect" as well as the Mary and Martha bible story as starting points for our conversation. And we'll be teaching them some forms of meditative/prayer practices, including: baking bread, walking a Labyrinth and KNITTING. Yep- it was a little selfish- but I worked knitting into the curriculum...Ok, Hopefully, it was really for the right reasons in the end, because i really do believe that it can be an important spiritual practice for some. I have never taught others to knit- so this should be a blast!

Monday, March 20, 2006

Home and Family

We made it home just fine- and Isaac was fantastic for the whole length of the long car ride- Yea! What a great baby!! I did knit a little, and cried a little, and laughed with my hubby and mom a little- and it was all good. Then this weekend we spent time with friends and family- and that was wonderful. My SIL took me to a "basket bingo" and I actually won a basket (how fun) and then we spent time last night with my In-laws (mom and dad) and that was just total fun. We are very lucky- even in the midst of all the stress going on right now. And I am feeling especially joyful and grateful today- so i am going to run with that while it lasts! Blessings to anyone reading this- hope you find joy today too.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

To Hell and back...oh I hope to get back

These last couple of weeks have been hellish. Things at work are complicated and frustrating- things at home would be good if my Dad would not have Alzheimer's and if my uncle wouldn't have died, and if my parents weren't financially bereft...ugh.

Tomorrow I am going to drag my husband and 18 month old son on a five and half hour car ride up to Warren PA for a funeral, followed by a 5 and half hour trip back that same night- and the only good thing that could come out of it is- well- I will probably knit on the way. Knitting really is kind of like an anti-depressant for me at this point. I

know that things always get better eventually- but I hope that they do sooner rather than later. I am a person who laughs a lot and who finds great joy in life- but right now it is just hard to get to that kind of joyful place and stay there for any length of time- life just feels like hell at this particular moment. In the meantime- I have a friend who's advice was- when you're going through hell - just keep on going.... I guess eventually you get to the "other side" or you get back again. eventually just can't come soon enough.